Musings of a Daydreaming Wanderer

Sometimes I wonder why do I bother being nice to people – is it man’s inherent altruism? To do good, despite being put down by others’ negative view of a person, or people viewing them as being pretentious and/or strange? Giving without receiving is a heavy duty, and one that carries such burden is prone to cracking from the weight of the deeds done, which no one really knows the full extent but to the bearer himself.

In a sense, I am starting to get jaded by this world and the attitude of others, where it can always be better than what it is currently.

On a related note, negative thoughts overpower positive ones easily, and no doubt I have lots of negativity about things, but at least I am being honest about myself. I suppose negativism helps to cushion falls should one’s expectations not be met.

So another year has passed normally for me on my birthday. Apparently, facebook status updates are still the “in thing”, despite my preference for hand-made/drawn objects as a gift, as I consider them as the most sincere form of showing that you care for another person. I am flexible with people, though, and I understand if they are unable to make or give one. Perhaps no one will ever read this blog post, but I guess putting it down here is better than not saying anything at all.

In other news, it seems that people around me always seem to have troubles plaguing them – I wonder, if it was due to me being too insensitive? Or maybe I’m just being hyper sensitive. This puts me in a rut, though – I feel that its a bother to be grey, and not black or white, but I’ll give it a shot and see how people see things from their perspective.  I guess I can’t help or dish out good advice to them out much as I would like to, since I can’t find the root cause – perhaps its better to just leave them to their own devices.

Anyway, enough with the ranting – here’s my 2011 birthday resolutions:

• Explore the fun and creative side of me through art and/or music (see point below)
• Pick up a musical instrument
• Be less prideful
• Complain less
• Seek to understand people, before they understand me (maybe I’m already doing that?)
• Reject negativity from others, and substitute my own positiveness, without being rude or overbearing on them